Monday, December 25, 2006
&I loved you all along;Blindly by your side.
Love needs courage.
The courage to love;
Ain’t easy to come by.
My past is complicated,
And hard to let go.
Now, it’s the same.
As it never changed.
Success wasn’t a word in love I can use,
As I never had any of them truthfully.
Even though my feelings are there;
You had never seen through the unseen.
Putting down the past for you,
Would I ever do?
My heart aches, upon reminiscing.
Those moments of love.
I couldn’t get you and,
Forsake my best friend.
It’s hurting me deeper;
It really does.
As each days pass,
I wondered if the same dream I dream,
Every single day would be true.
Destiny lies in the hands of god.
Our fate is undecided.
Behind those scenes,
There are tears.
Every hard heart;
Would come by that day.
Because I love you,
Anything would do.
Coward to confess my feelings for you,
As Consequences may turn out worse.
To love is to sacrifice.
Without sacrifice,
You wouldn’t get what you want.
Would I be mending another ending once again?
A broken mended heart ended once again.
Each start is getting riskier.
Would you risk that for me?
I wished, I really did.
The impossible was turned over.
Obsession made me crazy.
Feelings couldn’t be controlled.
Uncontrollable feelings led to selfishness.
That’s when love became selfish.
Was love once meant for us?
Was love in the air?
Was it the oxygen I needed?
The oxygen I needed was right in front of me.
But breathing it was hard, it really was hard.
I couldn’t do it.
That moment of regret in my life.
The greatest regret, I’ve ever met.
It’s unexplainable, it wasn’t a reading thing.
It’s not as if it was a storybook.
If it was, I rather the author to be me.
Where everything is layed before my eyes,
When’s everything is almost to perfect.
Don’t, please don’t.
Don’t leave me in the lurch alone.
Without a leaving note.
The wound is turning cold.
You left me without anything,
Everything’s not worth it.
The world’s nothing to me;
When I haven’t got you.
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see.
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak.
You were everything to me.
After you left,
My world was filled with hatred.
The agony I went through,
Caused the love to leave me.
That’s when the misery entered.
There wasn’t affinity between us.
It’s like the cross that’s crossed.
The craze was over when I decided,
I don’t belong here.
I asked god to take me back,
And shall never return.
The beating heart is stopping,
Slits are returning.
On my wrist,
Always the same spot ever.
Inner and inner,
The blood is thicker.
Bleeding throughout,
Never stopping.
Being alone in my room,
Where darkness was filled.
When time flies,
It’s when you said goodbye.
There are tears without you,
With you,
Everything has got a meaning.
Since you’ve left,
The road was empty.
It used to,
Only you and me.
It seems like it wasn’t meant to be.
Maybe this time,
It’s when I’ve got the feel in you.
You finally came back,
The day I was waiting for.
The memories of you parting me;
Was vivid clearly in my mind.
Still intact as ever,
The hurt was still.
Upon seeing you,
My heart died.
When sadness partnered hatred,
It was hard to be challenged.
Everything I’ve lost in you.
Devoted forever.
Sitting alone,
Along the river.
I thought through,
It was just a plaything.
I shouldn’t have got so serious.
Maybe it was out of foolishness.
After we parted,
I didn’t believed in miracles.
The day you left me,
The day my heart died.
As I continued living,
The past went by.
Once again,
You came back and entered into my life.
Harder to accept, the risking heart.
If I would, would you hurt me again?
Would you be that playboy and I would be the playgirl?
If you ever loved me,
You would try not to hurt me,
By all means.
I love you,
I really do.
The love is not describable.
Because of you.
Just the three words, will do.
I want to hear you whisper into my ear.
Sincerely, I love you.
And I would say,
You are never a disgrace.
To me, you’re perfect.
Because I was blind for you.
Love is to sacrifice,
Love is selfish.
That was why we’re together.
I don’t bow down to fate because,
I know destiny lies in my hands.
Affinity doesn’t matter.
What matters is that,
We loved each other.
We were given a chance to be together.
We shall treasure every moment as time can’t be turned back.
Every single moment spent,
Is equivalent to my life would never end.
As long as you’re with me,
I don’t care if the world’s upside down.
Because I just realized,
The story didn’t ended the way we didn’t wanted it to be.
You took my hand and say,
Never leave me again.
In my life, this regret was worth.
And she was worth me waiting for.
Although there was pains throughout.
Tears ain’t a thing if there was love.
For once,
I was seriously successful in my lovelife,
Including the person I love.
Love isn’t a sin.
I’ll faint upon hearing your voice.
Don’t make me cry;
Because I know you loved me like you always did.
It’s just the courage that wasn’t there,
Is once back.
And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{7:22 PM}
