&I loved you all along;
Blindly by your side.
Love needs courage.
The courage to love;
Ain’t easy to come by.
My past is complicated,
And hard to let go.
Now, it’s the same.
As it never changed.

Success wasn’t a word in love I can use,
As I never had any of them truthfully.
Even though my feelings are there;
You had never seen through the unseen.
Putting down the past for you,
Would I ever do?
My heart aches, upon reminiscing.
Those moments of love.

I couldn’t get you and,
Forsake my best friend.
It’s hurting me deeper;
It really does.
As each days pass,
I wondered if the same dream I dream,
Every single day would be true.
Destiny lies in the hands of god.
Our fate is undecided.

Behind those scenes,
There are tears.
Every hard heart;
Would come by that day.
Because I love you,
Anything would do.
Coward to confess my feelings for you,
As Consequences may turn out worse.
To love is to sacrifice.
Without sacrifice,
You wouldn’t get what you want.

Would I be mending another ending once again?
A broken mended heart ended once again.
Each start is getting riskier.
Would you risk that for me?
I wished, I really did.
The impossible was turned over.
Obsession made me crazy.
Feelings couldn’t be controlled.
Uncontrollable feelings led to selfishness.
That’s when love became selfish.

Was love once meant for us?
Was love in the air?
Was it the oxygen I needed?
The oxygen I needed was right in front of me.
But breathing it was hard, it really was hard.
I couldn’t do it.
That moment of regret in my life.
The greatest regret, I’ve ever met.
It’s unexplainable, it wasn’t a reading thing.
It’s not as if it was a storybook.
If it was, I rather the author to be me.
Where everything is layed before my eyes,
When’s everything is almost to perfect.



Don’t, please don’t.
Don’t leave me in the lurch alone.
Without a leaving note.
The wound is turning cold.
You left me without anything,
Everything’s not worth it.
The world’s nothing to me;
When I haven’t got you.
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see.
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak.
You were everything to me.

After you left,
My world was filled with hatred.
The agony I went through,
Caused the love to leave me.
That’s when the misery entered.
There wasn’t affinity between us.
It’s like the cross that’s crossed.
The craze was over when I decided,
I don’t belong here.
I asked god to take me back,
And shall never return.

The beating heart is stopping,
Slits are returning.
On my wrist,
Always the same spot ever.
Inner and inner,
The blood is thicker.
Bleeding throughout,
Never stopping.
Being alone in my room,
Where darkness was filled.
When time flies,
It’s when you said goodbye.

There are tears without you,
With you,
Everything has got a meaning.
Since you’ve left,
The road was empty.
It used to,
Only you and me.
It seems like it wasn’t meant to be.
Maybe this time,
It’s when I’ve got the feel in you.

You finally came back,
The day I was waiting for.
The memories of you parting me;
Was vivid clearly in my mind.
Still intact as ever,
The hurt was still.
Upon seeing you,
My heart died.

When sadness partnered hatred,
It was hard to be challenged.
Everything I’ve lost in you.
Devoted forever.
Sitting alone,
Along the river.
I thought through,
It was just a plaything.
I shouldn’t have got so serious.
Maybe it was out of foolishness.

After we parted,
I didn’t believed in miracles.
The day you left me,
The day my heart died.
As I continued living,
The past went by.
Once again,
You came back and entered into my life.
Harder to accept, the risking heart.
If I would, would you hurt me again?
Would you be that playboy and I would be the playgirl?
If you ever loved me,
You would try not to hurt me,
By all means.

I love you,
I really do.
The love is not describable.
Because of you.
Just the three words, will do.
I want to hear you whisper into my ear.
Sincerely, I love you.
And I would say,
You are never a disgrace.
To me, you’re perfect.
Because I was blind for you.

Love is to sacrifice,
Love is selfish.
That was why we’re together.
I don’t bow down to fate because,
I know destiny lies in my hands.
Affinity doesn’t matter.
What matters is that,
We loved each other.

We were given a chance to be together.
We shall treasure every moment as time can’t be turned back.
Every single moment spent,
Is equivalent to my life would never end.
As long as you’re with me,
I don’t care if the world’s upside down.
Because I just realized,
The story didn’t ended the way we didn’t wanted it to be.

You took my hand and say,
Never leave me again.
In my life, this regret was worth.
And she was worth me waiting for.
Although there was pains throughout.
Tears ain’t a thing if there was love.
For once,
I was seriously successful in my lovelife,
Including the person I love.


Love isn’t a sin.
I’ll faint upon hearing your voice.
Don’t make me cry;
Because I know you loved me like you always did.
It’s just the courage that wasn’t there,
Is once back.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{7:22 PM}

&pleasesanta;takemeaway
its christmas today.
yet.im so down.
but why.
cause my life's missing something.
that's you.
ahahs.
school's gonna reopen soon.
and my homework are still not freaking done.
im so gonna die.]:
haiya.dont ccare.
must finish by this week.:D
ILOVEFEE!
ahahaa.
nothing to post alr luhh.
life's been boring.
oh yeah.
yesterday went to riverview hotel to eat.
before that went to take neos with my mum.
she forced me luhh.
hahaha.but my cousin is so CUTE!*
ahhaha.of course mans.
heh.
anw.
ILOVEYOU.[:

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{4:44 PM}

&santapleasegrantmemywishes
MERRY CHRISTMAS!:D
ahahh.
i hope everyone's wishes will come true.
i want my wish to come true too.
HAHH.
i miss many people now.
ILOVEYOUBABES.
ANDFEE.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{3:42 PM}

HELLO.
ahahahs.
many happy things happened recently.
anw.
to fee:
i just dont want to lose you as my sis.
nothing more.
because i really dont want to lose you as a sis.
so i wont want to do anything to anger you.
so yeahh.
im holding on real tight on this friendship.
because when nobody is there for me.
your there.
and when im sad.
you will certainly find ways to cheer me up.
to me.
your the first.
amongst all my friends.
so yeahh.
to me
friendship is more important than relationship.
so yeahh.
just wanna say thanks for everything you did for me.
love you to bits.[:
dont worry.
my heart still belongs to HER.
and nobody else.
ill wait patiently for miracles to come true.
this is one wish i want for christmas.
all i want for christmas is YOU.
so yeh.
hehh.
i miss you;fee.:D
take care yeahh.
stop saying you will die young.
cause you wont.
just need to take good care of yourself.
miss you.[:
TAKE CARE;GOD BLESS.
ALFEE.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{2:21 AM}

HEYYO.
today im darn happy.
cause i found out that YOU are not angry with me.
anw.
these are from my heart.
if i lose you my special friend.
i wouldnt know what to do.
cause your my one and only.
as your always there for me.
you really never fail to be there.
thanks for everything.
i really wouldnt bear to let you go.
and never will.
cause it will hurt me alot.
IMISSYOU;
my special friend.
HAHAHAHS.
LOVES;
take care

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{12:27 AM}

FOR YOU;

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{12:27 AM}

HEYY.
after watching a jap drama serial
named 'one liter of tears',
i really think that the girl that contracted that
uncurable disease was very strong.
she tried her very best to live on.
but here i am.
being healthy, i keep saying i want to die
and live this world.
i thought all those thoughts would make me feel better.
instead i felt worst.
even she tried her very best to live life to the fullest.
i shed quite alot of tears when i watched the drama serial.
its seriously very touching.
and its based on real life story.
this drama serial gave me hope to live on.
and live life to the fullest.
because we will not know when we will die
or contract any uncurable disease.
we should just live life to the fullest.
because then on.
you would not have any regrets when you die.
although i say all these too early.
its really true that we do not know what would happen tomorrow.
so yeah.
family members and friends are always part of our life.
without them with us,it will be difficult for us to live on.
so yeah.
finished everything.
sorry for crapping.
but yeah.
NITES.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{2:30 AM}

TO THE BITCH.
dont you dare touch them.
you want to bash.
come bash me.
dont touch them.
if i ever find out that you do anything to them.
youll get it from me.
STUPID BITCH.
FUCK OFF.
dont bother me ever again.
REGRETTEDKNOWINGYOU.
SUCKER.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{10:27 PM}

WELLS.
just came back.
went to taka.like again.
kinda sick of it.
but i bought agnes b stuff.
loves man.
dog tag,limited ed bag,cap.
and got ring necklace for free.
hehs.kinda nice luhh.
theyre my christmas presents.
so yeah luhh.
haix.
read someone's nick just then.
made me lose confidence in myself.
why must all these things happen to me?
all i want is you.
i know ill never get it.
its act.IMPOSSIBLE.
for the other person,
you will muster your every ounce of confidence.
wellls for me?
nothing lohh.
yes.i confessed yst that ive still got feelings for you.
and still waiting for you to come by me.
so what if i told you?
youve got no reactions to all these.
im not tired of waiting yet.
ther's still hope in me.
cause i really love you.
feelings for you cant fade.
and will never do.
and if one day.
miracles happen?
then yeah.
ill be the happiest person living in this world.
cause i have you.
although i know that miracles rarely happen.
so yeahh.
no high hopes.
but just to tell you this.
im still waiting for you.
ILOVEYOU.
LOVES;alfee[:

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{10:21 PM}

WTF.
some suckups just keep bothering me can.
super irritating luh.
why cant she just leave me alone.
not happy with me then scold luh
i dont care anymore.
play with feelings is okay derx.
cause my heart only belongs to somebody.
so yeahh.
nobody can take over that somebody.
so yeah.
you say you play also.
AHAHA.lame luhhs.
even my sis also play with you derx.
pls luh.
your just plain stupid.
so yeahh.
you have no rights to say that ive got no respects for seniors.
ive only got no respects for you.
im really stupid to have even made friends with you.
such a pathetic person like you.
PATHETIC.
AHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAH.
please luhh
dont say that we're heartless.
cause we are NOT.
so yeah.
btw.YOURE JUST A FRIGGIN SUB.
so yeah.
NO HARD FEELINGS.
IVE NEVER LOVED YOU>
WAS JUST PLAYING ALONG.
rather fun luhh act.
but then i didnt know that you
are so sticky.
dont wannt to let go derx.
ewwww.GET AWAY FROM ME.
I DONT KNOW YOU.
YOUU SUCKK.
SUCKER.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{4:18 AM}

OMGZ.
im so damn irritated by some ppl.
wth is the problem with them.
keep irritating me.
suckups man.
i hate it when ppl bother me.
it is just so damn IRRITATING!!!
enough alr luhh.
DONT BOTHER ME ANYMORE>
i dont want to talk to you alr luh
GO AWAY.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{9:03 PM}

WELLS.
my blog's done.
i cried yesterday.
aiya.because of something.
rather sads luhh.
why must everything turn out this way.
i never expected it to happen.
i dont want to lose a friend like you.
please dont be so cold towards me.
im not used to it.
really.
i miss those times where we will crap shite tgt
on the phone.
i miss those times where we share our thoughts tgt.
i miss those times where we were always there for each other.
you are really my very very special friend.
i seriously miss you.
if i ever knew that things would turn out this way,
i would have never allowed that thing to even have started.
i would never want to lose you.
yes, i know you've said i changed.
well.i think i did too.
but in what way,
i seriously dont know.
isit in a bad way?
i think so.
if not you wont be like that towards me.
can you like at least talk to me?
i really miss you.
please dont leave me here.
my friend`LOVES.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{3:55 PM}

SUCKUPS.
damnit im bored.
i lost somebody that is important to me.
i dont want to lose her.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{9:05 PM}

WTH.
why must things turn out this way.
yeah.i want my seniors.
cause they are the ones who take care of me in school.
i dont want to lose them.
especially fee.
you get it.
aiya nvm.
i never thought that things will turn out like this.
im sick and tired of all these.
i have no choice but to choose my seniors.
aiya.
i really dunno.
i really need a break from all these.
FUCK.
ALFEE!!!

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{5:02 PM}

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