HELLOS[:
yesterday went out lorhhs.
never really enjoyed luh.
until someone called me.
i was kinda shocked.
but yeah luhh.
im so tired luhhs.
i dunno whaat to do alr.
staying in st margs for another year.
ITS KILLING ME.
anyway.i kinda love my seniors.<333
dunno whys also.
hehs.
not really alot of things to blog about.
hehs.
shall blog later in the day.
hehs.
ALFEE.
MIXED EMOTIONS.xD

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{5:39 PM}

IM KINDA SICK AND TIRED OF MY LIFE.
i hate it when things go wrong.
i just talked to my close friend.
she told me quite alot of things.
i hate it.
reality is scary.
i dunno why.
many people thinks that you are not worth me.
maybe you really dont.
is it worth still waiting on?
well,i dont know.
or just to say.i pretend not to know..
the truth iis im still waiting.
you are happy then you talk to me.
when your not happy.you wont talk to me.
you are the always the one
who get me on the roller coaster.
sometimes when im down.you will make me high.
when im high.you will make me low.
my heart really breaks when i find out that the person
that you really love arent me.
and will never be me.
i know it.
VERY CLEARLY.
but i dunno why.
im like a idiot standing in the rain waiting for you to bring me an umbrella
when i know that would never happen.
ive been waitng for you.
for like 4 months alr.
its not long.
but to me.as each day passes.
a stab in my heart is very normal.
i know that you wont care or bother.
but i have noone to tell this to.
except for my blog.
aiya.
i dunno.
should i just give up?
haiya.
ALFEE AH.FACE REALITY.
MIXED EMOTIONS`

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{12:35 AM}

LONG TIME NO BLOG.
i was quite busy these few days.
was thinking about alot of stuff which had been bothering me.
NOW.alfeelaw has been certified to be emotionally unstable.
i dont know what to do nows.
im kinda sick luh.
when im unhappy,there will always be somebody there to cheer me up.
thanks alot.iloveyou tonnes.
it was yesterday midnight luh.
someone suddenly came to talk to me.
i wasnt in a good mood then.
actually when that someone came to talk to me.
i was kinda shocked luh.
but who cares anyway.
well i dont.ahaha.
but i enjoyed it luhs.
was crapping quite alots.
ahahha.i miss everything.
these few days i just kept eating and sleeping.
just like a pig luh.
and of course using the laptop.
my life okay.
i love it.
i may not be changing school
but i want to change school.
so that i can go to a new environment.
where nobody knows me well.
so i can start a new life.
i want to go to a new school.
i yearn to.
i cant bear to leave my friends luh.
but i dont want to be "famous' in school.
not a good thing kays.
i dont want to.
moving hoouse marhs.
so i rather shift school too.
isint that better.
aiya.i dunno luh.
i think i blog finish alr luh.
just want to say.
ILOVEYOUALLTONNES.
that fee arh.
never answer my phonecall.
she not bad what.
dunno from what time start to sleep alr lorhs.
ahahha.
she pig marh.
sleep sleep sleep only.
heh.
that's all for today luh.
going japan on 7th december 06'
coming back on 17th december o6'.
10 days of fun.
then i have to come backk to face the harsh reality like again.
haiyo.i duuno luhhs.
ALFEE.
MIXED EMOTIONS`

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{3:30 PM}

LONG TIME NO BLOG.
many things happened recently.
i just feel like breaking down.
i dunno why also.
confused me all the while.
i have nobody to talk to.
i am extrememly sad now.
dunno for what particular reason.
aiya.
i dunno larh.
just let me be.
MIXED EMOTIONS`

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{8:32 PM}

HEYY.
i just woke up.
haix.so sleepy larh.
yesterday was a emo shite day.
i dunno also larh.
haiyo.
im tired of all these.
since you answered my nick.
you just dont want me to be there.
fine larh.
aiya.i dunno larh.
i need a break.
shall blog later in the day.
MIXED EMOTIONS;

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{4:21 PM}

I cant get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just cant seem to find a way to leave the love behind
I ain't trippin
I'm just missin you
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean

You kept me hanging on a string
Why you make me cry
I tried to give u everything
But you just give lies
I ain't trippin
I'm just missin you
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean

Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I've been wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do
I'm such a fool for you

I can't take it
What am I waiting for
My heart's still breakin
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I cant stop thinkin of you
It's true, I'm stuck on you

Now love's a broken record
That's been skippin' in my head
I keep singing Yesterday
Why we got to play these games we play?

I aint trippin
I'm just missin you
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean
Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I've been wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do
I'm such a fool for you

I can't take it
What am I waiting for
My heart's still breakin
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinkin of you
It's true, I'm stuck on you

Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I've been wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do
I'm such a fool for you

I can't take it
What am I waiting for
My heart's still breakin
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I cant stop thinkin of you
I hate you but I love you
I cant stop thinkin of you
I don't know what to do
I'm stuck on you

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{12:48 AM}

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I cared too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed 'cuz you came around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cuz you channeled all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is...

tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I cared too much
Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I cared too much
Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You should've never come around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cuz you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand

Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I cared too much
Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I cared too much
Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{12:42 AM}

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{12:26 AM}

FEE.
thanks for that touching posts.
thanks for always being there for me too.
you also NEVER fail to be there when i just needed somebody to talk to.
you will always listen to my whinings and naggings
although they ate kinda irritating.
but you're really nice.SINCERELY.
friendship has no age limit//i know that.
you are really someone who is special to ME.
a very special friend//KAKA.
AHAHHA.
but arh.seriously.
if you need someone to talk to,
ill always be here,
ALTHOUGH huh i cant really counsell people,
at least i can make you feel better larhs.
HEH.but i really miss you ehhs.
dunno why also.
maybe because long never see you alr larh.
IMU mans.
haiyo.
ILL BE THERE FOR YOU`WHEN THE SUN STARTS TO SHINE.
the phrase i everytime sing for you.when ure down.
just wanna say.
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.
alothough our friendship has many setbacks[ms ho]
still it has not changed.
i can prove that this is a very strong friendship.
may it be last long.
:)loveyoutobitstoo.
AL LOVES FEE.:D
you must love me too.HEH.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{4:15 PM}

HEYY.
i just woke up.
so tired cans.
haiyo.i miss school.
i want to go back to st margs.
HMPHH.
i want to go bACK THERE.
i read jh's blog.
she copied my song.
not fair larh.
that's my song leh.
it's in my blog.
HAHAH.
jkjk.im not angry larh.
do anything you want.
i miss people.
i dreamt of people.
i know it's impossible to forget but possible to neglect.
but you tell me how when even in the dreams i see HER.
cant do anytthing mans.
IMU.
MIXED EMOTIONS;

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{4:05 PM}

Its undeniable
that we should be together
It's unbelievable
how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis you need to know
If you don't know just how I feel,
Then let me show you now that I'm for real
If all things in time, time will reveal
Yeah...


One... you're like a dream come true
Two... just wanna be with you
Three... girl its plain to see
That you're the only one for me
And four... repeat steps one through three
Five... make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I start Back at One (yeah)


So incredible
The way things work themselves out
And all emotional
once you know what its all about babe
And undesirable
For us to be apart
Never would of made it very far
Cause you know you got the keys to my heart
Cause


One.. you're like a dream come true
Two.. just wanna be with you
Three.. girl its plain to see
That you're the only one for me
And four.. repeat steps one through three
Five.. make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I start Back at One (yeah)


Say farewell to the dark night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child
Whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time


One.. you're like a dream come true
Two.. just wanna be with you
Three.. girl its plain to see
That you're the only one for me
And four.. repeat steps one through three
Five.. make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I start Back at One

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{8:19 PM}

HELLOS.
i went to visit my uncle again lors.
just came back.
so tired larh can.
i want to sleep.HEHS.
im like a pig.eat sleep//sleep eat.
haiyos.
my uncle's feeling much better.
now we can put our hearts at ease that he is fine.
ahahhha.for me.
im growing fatter day by day.
aiya.dunch care alr.
ahahah.heh.
i gtg alr.
shall blog later in the day again.
MIXED EMOTIONS.xD
AL WAS HERE.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{7:04 PM}

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAIYAN!XD
you're 14 years old now ehh.
wahaha.
that's cool mans.
im sorry i cant spend ure birthday with you.
rather busy nowadays.
so yeah lah.
BUT`i promise ill get you something from jap for ure birthday.
heh.
yeah larh.:D
AL HEARTS CAI MANY MANY.(:
ouyveoli.iloveyou.
IMISSYOUMANS.
hope you had a happy birthday.
dont be sad sad okay.
must smile.
smile nicer larh.xD.
that's all larh.
AL WAS HERE.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{11:59 PM}

HELLO.
ahaha.
i just came back from the hospital.
my uncle's fine.
PHEW.
he was in pain lah.
but horh.there really very bored.
woah.got nothing to do at all can.
there i only can eat and eat.
went to 7-eleven to eat leh.
so nice can.
CHOCOLATES MAN.
im gonna grow really fat during the holidays.
aiya.dont care larh.
neng chi shi fu.
ahahhaa.ILOVEEATING.
i fell asleep on the taxi lehs.
MIXED EMOTIONS`
many probllems to solve.
about ks and jh.
i really dunno what to do alr larh.
haiyo.
jh arh jh.
hold on tight mans.
DONT LET HER GO.
HEHS.
:Dim so happy.got ppl miss me.
IMISSFEE.AAHHAHA.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{11:09 PM}

WELLS.
im back again.
i love to post.
ahaha.lazy.
going to the hospital soon.
to visit my uncle larh.
he went for operations.
leg operations.
wonder if he is okay larh.
haiyo.
NVM.ill be seeing him later anyways.
ahahha.yeah larh.
i just cooked.
im so proud of myself mans.
macoroni ehhs.
nice mans.
i love it.
i cooked it.
ALFEE IS A CHEF.
ahahha.
yeah larh.
im kinda crapping shite here.
shall stop here.
TO BE CONTINUED`
MIXED EMOTIONS. XD;

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{6:18 PM}

HEYY.
just woke up larh.
extremely lazy now.
very fast turn into big fat pig.
keep eating supper.and wake up super late.
i dunno larh.
become pig also dont care.
my mama just went out to the travel agency.
ahahhaa.JAPAN HERE I COME.
im so happy mans.
cant wait for the japan trip.
i dont think got alot of thing to do today.
later 2.30pm going to call ks.
she ask me to call her.
dunno what's gonna happen agains man.
aiya.
shall blog later in the day yeah.
MIXED EMOTIONS`

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{2:21 PM}

HEYY.
im back again.
i dunno who to believe now.
many people arre telling me different things.
i dunno who to believe.
wells.
everything is just not going right for me.
my life is all in a mess larh.
i dunno what to do alr.
i want to break down alr larh.
seniors like that.
friends like that.
what you want me to dio.
i WANT TO DIE.
i dunno what to do larh.
i give up mans.
nobody cares.
nobody even knows how i really feel.
ive had enough.
I HATE MY LIFE.
might as WELL END IT.
the best way out.
I HATE MYSELF`

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{10:52 PM}

HEYYS.
went to taka today.
was rather happy.
but then im rather sad mans.
i met fee and her clique.
act they saw me.
then they came to find me.
so scary okay.
they walked round and round the bobbi brown counter.
aiya.i was trembling mans.
about to faint larh can.
so scaryss.
then shopped for stuff .
went to kinokuniya just now.
my mother bought tons of magazines.AS USUAL.
not strange larh.
then came home.
when i came online.
someboddy came to talk to me.
i thought she would be nice.
then.she told me that i look like a lian.
do i really look like a lian?
i am not those who wear topshop clothes larh.
so yeah.different dressiing style.
aiya.nvm.if you want to critisize then yeah larh.
that's all.
al was here.
it was a SADDY AND HAPPY DAY.
MIXXED EMOOTIONS`

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{10:15 PM}

HEYY.
changed blogskin again.
the previous one was really ugly mans.
i hate it.
pink and black stripes.
so striking larh.
dont like.
this one better.
at least not that striking larh.
and it really talks about me.
I WANT FREEDOM.
heh.
many things happened.
saddening things lorh.
haix.
dunno what to say mans.
why must things turn out liddat for jh and ks.
they were so happy;
see now.
ks arh ks.
wake up larh.
even your jie here have woken up.
why cant you?
the person you crush on the heart got somebody else alr.
give up larh.
you know it's impossible`so why continue waiting?
come back to reality.
where someone really wants you
care for you.and loves you.
dont break her heart.
she needs you.
i also wake up alr.so you must too.
i dont want things to turn out like that.
i hope you understand what jie means.
please larh.ks.treat it as JIE beg you.
go back with her.she is the REALITY.
the person you're fantasizing about is the DREAMS.
you know you cant get her.come back to reality.
i hope you and her will patch back again.
remember larh.
JIE LOVES YOU<3.
so i wont ask you to do something which i know it's not good for you.
this relationship will let you learn many things.
and you will get the love yoou want.
she reallly loves you.
ahhaa.
say so much alr.
i think that's all larh.
want to listen or not.up to you.
heh.

to LJH: you must remain strong.
dont let her go.
hold her tight.as she fade away.
i know you love her.
if you lose her you'll be like a walking zombie.
we all dont want to see you like that.
so i want you to brace up.
dont let her go//she is the one.
i hope that the post that i wrote for her
will help you all patch up
and hopefully she does listen to me.
or else i write so much for what ?
right? you better not do anything silly.
dont crave her name on your arm.
it's pain.dont TATTOO also.
it's a forever thing.wont come off one.
if you want to,then paste her name at the back and walk around with it.
i bet you dont dare right.it's scary mans.
dont starve yourself larh.
you like bamboo pole alr can.
i starve myself still can.i so fat.
you cannot.you starve arh.
become a pack of bones.
imagine how ugly you wil look like.
later kellsie run away arh.
heh.i rather you stuff yourself with FRUITS and vegetables.
healthy marh.ahahah.
that's good.i rather you do that.
SERIOUSLY.
back to the point.
HOLD ON TIGHT//AND NEVER LET HER GO.
ahahas.
that's all larh.i crap so much alr.
take care.
god bless.:D

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{2:52 AM}

HEYY.
i changed my blogskin again.
i like it man.
not as weird as the previous pink one.
so weird.
ahahaha.
many things happened.
but i dont care anymore.
the things that are saddening.
are that jh and ks maybe gonna break.
how can man.
cannot liddat larh ks.
she loves you alot.
please larh ks.
iloveyou.:D

for JH: be strong.
hold on tight okay.
dont let her fade away larh.
i know that is she's gone.you'll be like a walking zombie.
nobody wants to see you like that.
she is just confused larh.
she will wake up one larh.
trust me.she is just like me.
im a living example.
HOLD ON TIGHT//AND NEVER LET HER GO.
yeah lah.that's all.
take care of yourself also.
dont starve yourself.i rather you stuff yourself.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{2:20 AM}

YOOX.
new skin.
ahhaha.
but this skin kinda lame.
so im gonna change skin again.
AHAHa.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{4:08 AM}

HEYYS.
woots.
woots.im bored mans.
now have to use HI card.
pathetic man.who ask the singtel to be so selfish.
ahaha.nvm.talking crap.
HEH.im bored.
i got nothing to do mans.
like wth larh.
the whole day sit at home to rot.
ahaha.that's all man.

TOFEE;remember to stay strong yeah.
ill be there for you.remember yeah.
many many people care for you.
cause they care larh.
AHAHAH.
dont forget me even if i changed school horh.
and i wont forget you too.
my BEST BEST FRIEND.KAKA.
you rock mans.
im so touched by ure tag mans.
stop bullying me horh.
okay.ahahaa.
it's a deal okay.
iloveyou.HEH.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{11:54 PM}

HEYHEY.
wells.
many things happened recently.
but who cares anyway.
had lots of fun at kellice's party.
WOOTS.
swimming in bikini top.
that's rather fun you know.
heh.i LOVE IT.
play water.play play play.
there were lots of ppl there.
heh.
i enjoyed myself at the party.
heh.
we pushed shuhada and liyi into the pool.
extremely fuun okay.
HEH.
hope there is another party like that again.
AHAHHAHA.
heh.i came home at 9pm.
and here i am.
POSTING.
ahaha.
i love kellice.kellsie.mitch.:D
my ROCKABABES.
ahhahaa.
that's all larh.
byebye.
AL WAS HERE.

And now, when the beat is so strong;
I'll give my heart in a song
{9:05 PM}

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